In the line of work I get to experience on a daily basis, I am privy to the inner most thoughts and blocks of some. And, I see a pattern that we (I say we, because I get tripped up over old patterns and beliefs too) get sucked into, that pulls our energy down, that brings us out of our own truth. We allow ideas about money and suffering and what's right or wrong or anything we believe to be finite, set in stone, to keep us from stepping up, from taking leaps and creating the new. Instead we cling to a plethora (or a handful) of patterns that have been a source of comfort in the past, because they are familiar. We know them, and they have served us for whatever reason.
I can insert every cliché and saying known to us all right here, but I don't need to—release the old and replace with a new thought. When you feel crappy, you have strayed from your highest self, and it is up to you to change it. No matter what someone has done outside of you, it is always YOUR choice what to do with it and how to feel about it. It doesn't mean that you stay and endure anything that doesn't feel good. It does mean that you drop the story of what has happened and what is. You learn and appreciate and keep replacing the old with the awesome that you want in your life now.
Suffering is a choice. Joy is a choice. It's simple, but the work comes from the shift in focus. There are a lot of beliefs that you've internalized about having to sacrifice and struggle in order to live a better life. You can create a good life, no matter what your experience has been.
Live well and happily. Be excited for who you are and who you are expanding to be.
Big hugs and love,