Meditative Writing

Meditative Writing

We all have those days when our "serious" writing is a tad more difficult to extract. Even when you experience those days, it is still advisable to write. Writing has that magic to suck you right back into an amazing place—a place where fear and doubt don’t exist or at least have dissipated in intensity. When it is 9:00 AM in the morning, and you are already feeling negative emotion, there is a way through writing to get back to your best self. I like to call this meditative writing. Feel free to create your own term for it and call it whatever you like, but just try it and see for yourself.

I generally begin by free writing whatever is in my head, just so I can clear some of the negativity from my body and to begin making sense of why I'm feeling less than excited and joyful (I generally know why before writing. I just gain more clarity once it is written.). Then once I feel purged after a page or two or the equivalent of five to ten minutes, I just start writing words repetitively that I want to feel, like joy, love, abundance, clarity (the list varies, but these four terms are pretty standard). It begins to look much like the typewriter scene in The Shining (but this is in an effort to maintain health, not completely lose it) where Jack repeats that line, "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy." (The line is true—must go out and play!) The goal though in meditative writing is to choose words that create a better feeling. The act of moving your pen in the same motion, and the repetition of words and thoughts can bring you to a calm and relaxed enough state to form the ideas you're seeking to begin your "serious" writing or more importantly, just to feel much better than you did before. Trust me. It works every single time. I once did it for like and hour. The words became phrases I repeated, and I felt like I could fly afterwards. The momentum of positive energy was immense, and it felt so amazing that I felt that way for most of the day. Writing is beautiful tool that can get you to where you want to be.

Happy writing!

xoxo,

Angelique

 

Fear and Doubt Happen: Do It Anyway

Fear and Doubt Happen: Do It Anyway

This week has been intense emotionally. Even though I haven't been at my teaching job since the end of June, this week marked the beginning of the school year, and it finally hit me—I don't work there anymore. Yes, I am happy, but you know—those last vestiges of letting go and honoring a new path. Tuesday and Wednesday were the most difficult, because I felt like I should be doing something else, like getting up and putting on teacher clothes and hopping in the car for the commute, and how dare I be home when everyone else is on their way to work or school. Plus, a change in routine throws me off a bit, and it takes some adjusting to time management. I was freaking out emotionally and mentally. My ego berating: I had made a huge mistake and how dare I think I could pull this off. How dare I don’t follow the prescribed work relationship. Who the hell do you think you are starting a business and going to grad school? You had a job—the fear and doubt kicked in big time. My usual amount of writing and meditating lacked the same power they have when I am at ease. I tried to keep busy, but the overwhelm pushed me far beyond my comfort zone. I napped a couple of hours Tuesday (I know—awesome side effect!), was on edge and snippy. Luckily, no one was around during the day to hear how irritated I really was. Essentially, when I get to this egoistic insanity, I am trying to control every move. We all know control never pans out—just keeps everything stuck and limited.

I just kept working—I was a little behind my normal schedule, but I kept at it. The most important thing was I continued with my meditation practice and reflective writing, even when I felt like it wasn’t doing a thing. I took the breaks I needed and listened to all of my emotions. I didn't beat myself up for feeling fear and doubt—I just rode it out with more love and more centering. I fully honor that I freakout and am plagued with doubt, but I've never been more confident in my abilities and what I envision as my best life. I know that what I am creating and what I have left behind is absolutely the best decision I've made in a long time. I can stand a little fear and doubt, because I have chosen this intuitively and consciously. I did not choose this on a whim or as a reaction to something else. I have known for years that I wanted to create Write for Healing, help others write their way to authentic and whole beings, and write, and to do it all on my own terms. I just didn't have the courage and confidence in the past. I have it now, and I am more aware than ever that it's exciting and part of the process as I build to come across some obstacles. I know how to navigate them and if I don’t know, I will find a way, because my vision and dream is unwavering.

I am looking forward to the weekend! Hope your Friday is fabulous!

Enjoy your weekend!

Much love, 

Angelique