Sometimes you fall off track and you know it kind of, a little, maybe not at all -- then, you take a look around and ask yourself how the hell did this happen? And totally this was definitely not my intention.
And you can stay there in the self-wallowing, the "oh shit stance, how do I get out of this?" Or you can just start getting out of it by embracing it all in the first place. Embracing it without the judgy judge you take on so readily, without the deep blanket of shame. Embrace it. Accept it, and get on with it. Cry. Scream, but embrace it now. Not later, because it shows up as stress and sickness and panic and other unwanted ailments. Embrace everything now.
So here's the thing. I have so many awesome ideas, like really great ones that I know I could easily be a company's sounding board but what I've not been so good at is the implementation and the follow through of said good ideas. That's a different animal altogether. That is major perseverance and total recommitment. Like everyday you wake up recommitment. The kind that comes from deep within and a deep belief and love of self, and I'm oh so close. And the forgiveness of self too, not to get stuck in, "OMG, I fucked up." But to embrace that it isn't the way you intended and to get on with it. I'm getting on with it, and here I am.
I'm here and still trucking on. I am not perfect (perfect is boring as hell anyway), and I'm cursing more, because that's who I am and this is my blog. Some of you may leave. Some of you may stay. And I can no longer go around preaching authenticity if I don't keep showing up fully as me.
So recommit to yourself and your passions and to all parts of you. I am, and I will continue to keep showing up as me. Here's to the recommitment every single day to be your bestest and most glorious self.
Happy writing and gigantic love,