I hope you've had a wonderful weekend and are having an even better day!
This weekend, I took the time to rest, but I admit that there were moments when I felt like I should've been doing more. That old line of thinking, that ego driven way of being was in a control, but I know why. It was residue from taking my final on Friday. It doesn't matter that I'm 43 -- all of that old stuff of what it means to be in a class and to be judged and to want amazing grades, to fit into the high ranks of those with 4.0's. Do you remember what it was like? Well, it's not a pretty feeling, and it definitely went against the intuitive way I've been working since being at home. I was battling myself completely, and there are parts I know will still unfold, but I just felt the yucky residue of being in a high state of anxiety, a place I allowed myself to go all weekend while I was relaxing. It took a bit of mindfulness in writing and meditating, and it worked for the most part. I am definitely questioning why I chose to go back to school when I'm already doing what I want.
I advise with much love to consider with your heart and intuition any big decision you take. Forget what everyone else says you should do. Forget the rules set forth by everyone else. Big change bucks what has already been done. I do not mean that you cannot learn from others -- you most definitely can, but listen to your inner voice, the authentic you, the part of you who already knows the answers. If I had made the decision today to go back to school, I might have made a different decision, because I know a path does not have to fit into a traditional, narrow box. Again, what I have learned so far in grad school has been awesome (minus the final exam!)! But when you're looking to fill what's missing from something that's out there, it may not be the best decision.
Make decisions with your heart and authentic self.
Have a beautiful day, my loves!